We thought about moving to places like Brownsville, TX and Grand Junction, CO. Maybe getting a fixer-upper kind of house and start working on that as a revenue stream. However, we need a bit more investment capital for a venture like that.
But that's OK. We are in a good spot to be in limbo like this and we still have a lot of options open to us. We are currently living with my mother-in-law in Littleton, CO -- which is really not that bad. Nate has gotten himself a job at Lowe's, which can transfer anywhere there is a store and an opening. I am staying at home with Cailey as her Learning Coach while she attends online school.
It totally sucks that this dream did not work out, but it was not a complete waste of time or failure. I really enjoyed the memories I was able to create with my family. I know we are one cohesive unit and we can get through anything this life has to throw at us.
I am not dependent on a job, a house, a car, or any material thing to give me a purpose or identity. I am what I am, and I am happy with that. I can try to do better, get better, be better... but at the end of the day, I am still just me and I will most likely keep making mistakes and having setbacks. I need to be comfortable with that. I cannot change any of the decisions I have made in the past, but I can learn from the experiences and carry those with me.
Most importantly, I have found a kind of inner peace/sense of self I never really knew before. I call it my "Mission in Transition." And I think I'll stay here a while. :)
Definition of mission: A pre-established and often self-imposed objective or purpose
Definition of transition: A movement, development, or evolution from one form, stage, or style to another
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